Major life change towards wholeness of Self.

Lion's Gate Portal Opening!

Tonight a portal called Lion's Gate opens in the sign of  Leo.  Synthetically put, it is an alignment of Earth, the Sun and Sirius, a star even brighter than the sun.  This means we will be receiving more Light and abundance; our powers of manifestation will grow and so will creativity and a sense of groundedness. Yesterday was a turning point for me; I am feeling the energy of the eclipses and as part of this I have discovered  that the Energy of all these astral events share in the same high Essence of positivity, generosity, manifestation, collaboration and peace. I am sure that not by chance last night I read about Womb Energy and harnessing this to access sacred femininity. It is pertaining to women and men as well, it is an Energy of peace and reflection and it is there to balance the masculine in which we are entrenched, for better or for worse.

This Energy can be accessed through specific meditations, there are many on YouTube, or you might create your own. On a personal level, I find that Womb Energy has come to my attention to balance my Heart Chakra Energy from which I often operate. This will aid me in manifesting my dreams and wishes and will provide me with some much needed inner security.
I foresee great things to come for planet Earth. We are aided and protected by Source and by some ET races and just now, amid talks of nuclear war, the media wants us to wallow in fear: don't let them do it! Anchor yourself into this mighty, positive energies and thrive.
A YouTube sacred femininity speaker and counselor (Flourishing Goddess) is a wonderful person who suggested that 6 Goddesses energies are connected to the Womb; I was inspired to tune into this Energy by creating a little altar with the Doreen Virtue's Goddess cards, and lit some tea-lights and will keep on doing this daily til I feel the Energies have permeated my life. For the past couple of days I have been feeling happy and excited - I know good things are coming for all of us, and for me personally. I hope this little reflection can inspire and gladden your heart...and womb :) Namaste.

Realization

Hello everyone of my thousands of readers, he he. I am back because I had an epiphany today. For a couple of months or so, I have been unable to sleep at night and wound up sleeping part of the day away. The insomnia is new to me, did not have it till menopause showed up. So, for months I have been feeling worried about myself; am I depressed? Am I useful? Will I have more and more "normal days"? I have been asking myself and my son and friends about this and they all said I am ok, I am not depressed, it must be the new order brought on by menopause. I am not taking anything for the menopause or the insomnia but, tonight, a light bulb went on! At first I felt angry because I woke at 7 pm and my dear son has been doing the grocery shopping and the cleaning, which I appreciate but feel bad when I do not contribute. Anyhow, I realized I felt tired still but, at 10:30 pm something kicked in and I said to my son:"I am awake NOW!" He laughed and told me to go with the flow, no one is judging me (he is sweet like me ;) ) At that point I began working on my sci-fi novel Kobalt  which I kept thinking I should be writing thru the daytime and so I was missing out and REALIZED that this is why I am sleeping days : to write at night!!!! I produced 3 new pages and I solved some problems I was stuck on, and felt, for the first time in a few months, that I DO have control over my life, I am not lazy, unmotivated or depressed. I am a night person and that is ideal for the writer in me. I feel well now and more alive. I also do look forward to the few, magical nights in which I will fall asleep and will have great daytime action, like walking to the park or going for coffee, scrubbing my bathroom and cooking great dinners for my family, since I love to cook (and to eat).  I will take the sleepless nights as a gift of time dedicated to my life's work.

Regarding the writing, I have been stuck on Kobalt for months and I was worried. I have to confess that for a while I have been "blocked" by the fear of being judged by the reader. I know I should only write what I love and for myself. I lost that. After being in the ups and downs world of publishing for about 20+ years, writing has become work to me, and work in an onerous way, since I worry about what publishers will think of it, and what the readers will think of it if is published. I felt obligated to write and I was missing the joy in it, so I quit writing for about one month, and feeling horrible about it. I have been scared to not be either smart enough or prepared enough to write this novel. Yes, insecurity, lack of confidence in myself. Tonight I wrote from my heart, for myself and I realized that this work is the work of the soul and it belongs to ME. If others end up loving it I will be ever so happy and grateful, but I also expect critics. It's ok if I keep writing what I love and also, nobody is perfect.

I don't think I ever shared  Kobalt  's general plot. It is the story of 5 special Beings who come to Earth to rid it of cruelty, evil and the root of it all, the Illuminati or ruling elite. These are beings chosen by the Galactic Federation out of thousands of souls competing for the job. One of them, Kaela, was born on Earth and is a Walk-In; this happened in her teens. Now she is about 30. The other four come from different parts of the galaxy and also other star systems. They have been given the cloned bodies of Human donors and had their DNA upgraded to 12 strands, giving them some special powers. Kaela included, although she is not allowed to keep all her past/concurrent lives memories as the others do. She has an earthly lifetime and karma to fulfill. These are the basics and I have many notes to draw from. I brainstorm a lot. I think of this project every day and I try to stay current with Ancient Aliens and my spiritual friends on Facebook and in 3D for fresh ideas, and also books and movies for inspiration. I try to learn something new every day that will benefit my writing. In a way, I am always at work in my mind. I feel so blessed tonight as I have put the story on a good path and I am so curious to see what's coming, for my entertainment and, some day, maybe for others to enjoy as well. :)

I am on the radio for the 3rd time with Joe Montaldo on his UFO Undercover program! Please join us. Here is the link: http://ufoundercover.homestead.com/

This is an excellent video about ET species with which Earth is in contact.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R40N1IESKM0

I am on the radio on January 13h, Wednesday, at 8 pm EST!!!!

http://ufoundercover.homestead.com/index.html

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Ziggurat10  http://www.amazon.com/dp/B01962OXNC  Non-fiction, my experiences with ETs, "alien abduction"; Angels;  Annunaki; ancient Sumer;  reincarnation. Includes material from my own personal journals.

Orbital  http://www.amazon.com/dp/B019446D80 Sci-fi and fantasy novelette.

Children of the Goddess  http://www.amazon.com/dp/B01962P1E2  Fantasy novel set in ancient Ireland; druids, magick, love story.

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Thanks :)

Wonder Woman

I deal with fatigue on a daily basis, and the fact that I am a night person does not help. I prefer writing at night, but add to the equation a little insomnia, and you get the picture. I tried something; one day ago I went to bed at 10:00 pm, woke up briefly and then slept the rest of the day and night. I woke spontaneously today at 6:00 am and I was feeling rested and ready to work. I indulged in a panettone (and Italian Christmas cake) breakfast, coffee and a shower and I was ready! I washed  both my food cupboards and refilled spice bottles; I chucked expired foods and vitamins, did dishes and then I washed under the kitchen sink, the place where the garbage goes, yuck. After that I uploaded some of my work to Kindle thru Amazon.com and searched for new publishers for my nearly finished novel Strega (Witch)!!!! I am VERY excited, I am finding great opportunities for my writing!
I also made dinner and some more dish washing and I feel so happy and content - I am an artist and, by definition undisciplined, but I find that when I do discipline myself I can do wonders in my life. Yes, it is well worth it to me to go to  bed at a sane time (like midnight) and wake up early and getting everything done that needs tending to. There is a feeling of accomplishment that is better than sleeping in  late and then half-assing the day. I can't be wonder woman every day, but I can be a functioning artist by the daytime, though there will always be the occasional late night musing. So, for those of you struggling with the fact that you are a creative person at night but need to get things done in the day, take heart: reconditioning is possible! Artists are thought of as undisciplined,  (and for a while I thought of this as a romantic notion that I wanted to stick to) but it is a matter of choice, really. If you choose discipline you will maximize your productivity. I have been writing all my life and I can tell you, a new schedule, when needed, works. Sending out lots of love to everyone and happy creating! xoxo

If my Nonna, my Italian grandmother, had lived, she would be 105 years old today. So befitting that her birthday happened to fall on Earth day, too. She was a savvy and sensual Taurus, in love with all of life and animals and nature and the best cook I have ever met. She taught me how to cook too and I am forever grateful for that. So, today, on this beautiful, sunny Earth Day, I feel inspired to share. I am so sorry I have not been more diligent and write more often, but I only do when the muse calls :)

Maybe it is Spring, but I feel, yet again, renewed. I feel very stable emotionally and connected to all, which is a gift in itself.  I struggle still with my novels, I have two going at the same time, both mean the world to me. Mostly I struggle with Kobalt, the sci-fi/fantasy one. I feel this book is in me, yet I think I am not ready, or cool enough, to write it. I know this is rubbish thinking, it is not what I choose to believe. I a going to dive into the writing and see what happens; this time more than ever, I feel I need to soar and create second by second, heartbeat to heartbeat. The Universe has been telling me to trust It and myself and I am going for it!!!! :)

I am single again and doing great, I am happy for having had the experience with Malek and I am grateful for the lessons, too. I am loving myself more now, I am becoming protective of my heart (it gets battered worn on the sleeve, trust me) and I know my next partner will be my Soulmate...yes, as cheesy as it sounds, I believe! Once again I am invited to trust the Universe. The Angels are prompting me to think ad write only positive words so that my fondest dreams may manifest. It feels good to want good things for me now. I am mostly talking about self-love, pampering, showing myself the same kindness I show others, for a change. In fact, I have a mani-pedi booked for me and  a friend this Friday, something I have not let myself have in 5 years! And I went shopping for new skin care today too.  I make it a point to talk to Angels and Star Beings and to meditate daily.

I feel worthy of love and passion and trust and faithfulness and all the good things that the right spiritual and romantic relationship is supposed to bring. My friends and family (my 2 adorable cats are included of course!) continue to be my greatest source of love and support, they do not know how grateful I really am. I nearly lost a friend when I chose to tell him that I am a Starseed/Walk-in. He is really weirded out by it and I am so sorry I ever told him, but, after a year of being FB friends, I thought he should know who I am, what I write about, what I believe. I only tell close friends but, when Ziggurat10 finds a publisher, well, the cat's out of the bag for everyone who knows me and reads me.  I am not ashamed and, as for "crazy" I have been called that all my life, it does not burn me any more. I love and appreciate myself in its entirety, I am happy to be me, warts and all. This is a realization that makes me feel deeply beautiful. Hoping and praying, every day, for a better world, trying to anesthetize the ugliness by looking at the beauty, by staying in the Light.
 My next step of self love is guiding me to daily sessions of Yoga and dancing. then the writing should follow, Yup, I feel centered, bitches LOL :P XOXOXOX

A Reawakening

It has been 7 months since I quit my job in retail because of clinical depression. In fact, the job has had a lot to do with precipitating this episode. I am now clear with myself: when I work again, it will be writing, editing and doing translations, from my home.

Since then, I have been astonished, every day, at the freedom I have had to take care of myself, to nap when I needed, to cook, to journal and be introspective. Over the months I have had ups and downs with my mental health. I turned 51 three days ago and I have been feeling myself transforming, healing, percolating (about my writing, about my life) and feeling that, finally, I can let go of the now stagnant daily routine of survival and comfort, as I feel I must now be reborn to my writing, to my relationships, especially how I view myself, and the world and my place in it. I feel a clearing and a spiritual renewal calling me to write and share of myself with Humanity. I have been quiet for months about everything, busy healing as I said, and now I hope that this momentum stays with me, because I want to wake up in the morning and get out of my comfort zone (the bed or the couch, which I adore) and dance to the music that moves me and do work on my novels, write e-mails, communicate. The gate is open again and all I have to do is follow the guidance of my Angels to thrive and be the best version of me that I can be. I want to make a difference in the world by speaking up - I feel every person's opinion counts, by sharing, we network and if we share with love and honesty in our hearts, we can achieve a state of higher consciousness. It is as simple as smiling at a stranger or paying for someone's coffee at the cafe' - any Human, heart-driven action is valid and fruitful. Random acts of kindness tend to multiply.

I am delighting in being well now, being closer and closer to who I am - the Divine Self . I am not there, not by a long-shot, but I am closer to is that I have ever been in this life.

As I count my blessings, like my little family, cats included, and friends,  I just hope that, some day, I can heal the relationship I have with my mother and sister in Italy. We love each other but we think very differently about life and relationships.

I am going to fight to maintain my positivity, to live driven by Love and not by Fear, and to love and accept who I have become. I am proud of myself, I am convinced that developing some discipline is all that I need to thrive as a woman and as a writer.  I am blessed with great guidance from above. Speaking of which, I have now a second "E.T. scar" behind my left shoulder. I feel my Star family has had a hand in my recovery and I am, as always, humbled and grateful.

Asking for global mercy for Gaza

I am neither a Muslim or a Jew, nor am I particularly politically or religiously minded, but I am a writer with a conscience, and I have something to say about what is in happening in Gaza (as well as other distressed areas of the world). My sadness and indignation at the images I see are beyond words, but I will try to express what is in my heart and mind.

There are ethnicities and religions that are preferred by The New World Order. Generally speaking, they devalue every living Being but themselves and they only play favorite as long as keeping us pitted against each other, makes their game interesting and profitable. These are the forces behind the majority of the world's governments. They literally play with us all and we have to stop letting them by being aware of what they do and stop fighting each other.  If only all people and soldiers everywhere realized that PEACE means global freedom, they would stop following orders or seeking retribution and create a better world for everyone, rather than support the toxic status-quo globally.

Israel, as Zion/NWO beacon, has, unfortunately, become exactly like their former Nazi opressors. This cold-heartedness and lack of conscience belongs to the leaders of the world, NOT the people of any particular country. I know there are Jews grieving for Gaza.

I want my dear Muslim friends, always maligned, misinterpreted and blamed for terrorism, that they MATTER; their lives and their children's MATTER to the rest of Humanity. They are no more guilty of anything than any other religion or country. As we see (online) the heart-wrenching images of tortured and killed Palestinians and their CHILDREN, we have to ask ourselves, would the world
 do something if these victims were not Muslim? There are adults abusing and killing children. Think about that.

All I can do is pray and stay aware, we ALL must. The world has to help Palestine. I do not have the answers but I believe in TRUTH and staying aware of the "game" world leaders play with us; I believe in peace, happiness and security for ALL regardless of creed, gender, nationality etc. I also believe in prayer - I am sending all my love, healing and best wishes to Gaza and everyone grieving for Gaza. And for Heaven's sake, WHERE is the humanitarian aid for Palestine? We shall all be free and thriving when we stop fighting and unite in peace and have compassion for each other.

So much has been happening lately, mostly good - I am learning to expect only good things and, as per the Law of Attraction, they come! I am healing from my separation and, in the meantime, I am finding who I am, and I like myself, I love myself now and I understand it is important to love me before expecting that anyone else does.

I am making some really awesome, highly vibrating friends on and off Facebook and, actually, I am in the midst of a reunion with some of the members of my Family of Light. We are all family, of course, these are just souls with whom I shared my past/concurrent lifetimes. I feel love for everyone, I feel it is unconditional and without labels and expectations. I feel supported by my loved ones everywhere and by the Universe! This is a great time to be alive :) I feel, and I see, that Humanity is waking up and we are coming together, understanding that love, unity and sharing are the way to a prosperous future for everyone, and for our amazing children and the animals on the planet. we are all ONE.

Music has always been vital to me and connected to my spiritual life. On my Facebook travels I connected with two amazing Iranian young men who promote Psytrance music - my most favorite kind of music on the planet and, obviously, theirs. I am learning a lot from them and I believe that Starseeds are encoded to love trance music because it connects us to space, and, for cosmic travelers, that is our home and comfort. Often we talk about "Flying" or being on a "journey" when listening to this kind of music, it is very exciting!!! It connects and unites people in Love and Peace, which is what Hadi and Farzin, as promoters of Pytrance are trying to do. For those interested, please check out their FB page:

https://www.facebook.com/PSYNEMA.IR?fref=ts

What am I listening to right now?? A track that Hadi shared with me, produced by is friend Aaresch of CryptexMarble, it is called Pampelonne:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zrMlgU6mg2I&feature=share

Now, as of two days ago, lady Serendipity lead me to spontaneously do psychic readings on Facebook, in the Starseeds group!  Someone started posting their photo and asking for a reading and so, we were all reading each other!  It is a labor of love and it is fun an fulfilling, since we are sharing and helping each other. Now, my Spirit sister and dearest friend, Jenna, had the great idea of creating a group just for readings, and for those interested, here is the link:

 https://www.facebook.com/groups/345672265570899/?fref=ts

Ok, so, since I did a few readings and people found them to be "right on" (to my surprise, though a lady who read for me said I am quite psychic, but I have, so far, put that gift on the back burner and it is time that it came out to help people!!!) I was reading about Starseeds' planets of origin, I was asked to create a group specifically for those kind of readings. This is the link:

https://www.facebook.com/groups/537822979648849/

 I am going to include here an excerpt from my book Ziggurat10: Journals of the Last Wandering about some channeled material I received about the different species in the Cosmos, to  keep as reference for those of you who are looking to identify their soul's origins:

August 17th, 2009 notes from Channeling on the Ouija: The Soul Hubs.

     May 9^th, 2009 notes following a channeling about some of the most common space species and inter-dimensional Beings that I am, apparently, familiar with. See which soul-race(s) you most identify with! You will share characteristics with them. Notice that the writing style of the following material is colloquial and immediate and so by choice; I transcribed directly from my channeling notes and did not edit to preserve authenticity.

Starseeds and Walk-Ins

These are what my Guide calls Universals. They are Beings whose mission is to travel the universe by incarnating into different civilizations. They lower their vibrational frequency in order to adapt to lower vibrating planets or dimensions. Starseeds incarnate into a body at birth; walk-ins subconsciously contract to swap places with another soul who has decided, for whatever reasons, to exit the lower plane of existence. Both starseeds and walk-ins seek and disseminate knowledge and use it to raise everywhere it is deemed possible and worthwhile. Also known as “cosmic wanderers”. Key-words are: quest; sacrifice; awareness; accelerators of spiritual evolutions; unconditional love and well-being. Most come from the 5^th dimensional plane and up; if you are a starseed or walk-in, you have been around, so to speak.

The Zon and Cegiacida

As I have said, Zon is one of the Soul Hubs, dimensional planes within the star system Cegiacida. Souls of Zon provenance tend to be cosmic wanderers. In terms that we can comprehend, we must think of the Elements in Western Astrology: Water/Air are the “essence” of these kind of souls. The dimensional plane, like the rest of the Universe, has a Light side and a Dark one. There is no good and evil, just Yin and Yang, so to speak. Active and passive modes of being. This Hub is characterized by highly developed Light technology; total, unconditional love, telepathy, Oneness. They are crafters of spiritual and Faith issues. These souls are spiritually advanced. The Zon travel the cosmos to absorb negativity and transmute it into love and positivity. Starseeds of Zon and Cegiacida provenance are rather selfless and they tend to be very empathic in order to “feel” what another Being does, the goal being to help them psychically transform their Energy into a positive.

Cegiacida, as a galaxy, is characterized by the energies of Earth (as in grounding element) and Fire, which makes the Beings living there a bit more emotional and outgoing than the Zon.

The Vondon

Yet uncharted star system (by Earth’s point of view). Light-beings, born channelers and mediums/healers. Great inter-consciousness communicators; benevolent, they practice service for their own and others’ spiritual advancement. Highly evolved, most of them transitioned a long time ago from dense body form to light. They follow the evolution of Consciousness in the Universe; they are linked to the Akashic records and souls record-keeping. They teach and inspire other races to communicate from the feeling level up to the mental.

The Angels

These are what I call “Universals”; these are Light Beings who serve God and Humanity, as well as other species in the Universe. They are selfless, kind, and protective. They are all-knowing and they feel unconditional love for All and dedicate their existence to Service. They are present in the Kabbala (the Tree of Life) and I would suggest reading anything written on the subject by Doreen Virtue, as well as using her wonderful Angel Cards to consult with the Archangels and the Angels daily, or anytime the need arises. They will be there. They also express themselves through Numerology, I recommend Doreen Virtue’s book: Angels Numbers 101.

The Pleiadians

Pleiades star system; 5^th dimensional. They are characterized by a sense of balance, love of music and sensuality and a penchant for humor and laughter. Having read all of Pleiadian channel Barbara Marciniak’s books, I consider her an authority on the subject. Idea of Earth as “Living Library”, meaning that Humans carry in their DNA that of many other space races. Pleiadians feel connected to us and feel a willingness to help us evolve as they played a role in the shaping of Human civilization. Key words relating to them are: The arts; wisdom; knowledge; inspiration; motivation; manifestation.

The Annunaki

Planet of origin, Nibiru; 5^th dimensional Beings. Zecharia Sitchin has written extensively about them and I highly recommend reading his books. They Annunaki seed civilizations, and they seeded ours here on Earth by genetically combining the DNA of the indigenous simian Homo Erectus with their own DNA, thus producing us, Homo Sapiens. After seeding civilizations, they often leave them to develop on their own, as they did with Earth: Sumeria, Crete (Minoan civilization), Egypt, South America with the civilization of the Aztec, Inca and Maya, Atlantis, are all theirs. Annunaki Magickal knowledge has survived in some present day Toltec masters. Read Carlos Castaneda’s books to explore this more in depth. Some say that the Annunaki were created from the union of Orions and Sirians. They are passionate, seminal, creative, now very advanced spiritually as well as technologically. They observe Humanity’s process of evolution and are supposed to be one of the ET races to come back to visit us on or after 2012. Keywords associated with them are: Life-givers; creators; manifesters; sacred sexuality (masters of Tantra); positive magick.

My opinion on the Annunaki and Earth’s current “gold rush” initiated by the Illuminati:

     I believe that the Illuminati are trying to buy gold from people(surely you have seen the endless TV commercials and magazine ads), to bargain to keep their power upon the arrival of the Annunaki after 2012. Many of us know this, some by intuition, ETs “education” or/and past-life memories and I will tell you this: The Annunaki, like us, like many cosmic races, have evolved over time (since the seeding of our Civilization) and they do not give a damn about our gold! They are coming to redeem themselves and free Earth from the hold of negative power.

     They feel responsible for our issues and they simply want to put us on the right path, not by governing us, but by making us totally aware of our true genesis and history. The Illuminati won’t be able to bargain for their lives with gold.

The (short) Greys or Zeta They are Universals. Much misunderstood and maligned, they are often confused with grey bio-robots that the Reptilians use to carry out their despicable abductions/torture and hybrid experiments. The “real” Greys are positive emanations of what my Guide calls the Fuchsias or pink-tan benevolent Beings. These Beings often also appear as pure Beings of Light who try to communicate with Humanity often through dreams. These Greys are the conscience of humanity and monitor geneticists’ activities in the Galactic Federation and often “help” other seeding species, like the Annunaki, in the process of their Creatures’ evolution. They are midwives of consciousness; facilitators of communication; teachers and custodians. They are deeply intelligent and emotionally rich, although they do not outwardly reflect that at first encounter. They help species go from 3rd and 4^th to 5^th dimensional consciousness. They reproduce by cloning.

The Ataien

Charted Epsilon Eridani star. They are insect-like Beings who resemble the praying mantis. Very intelligent, they embody meditation, kindness and compassion. Jittery, they emit a clicking sound as reported by people who have come into contact with them. Key-words here are: Zen Buddhism; power in meditation and stillness; Healing; astral projection, rest and sleep and their rejuvenating properties. Respect for all creatures, insects included of course.

The Lyrans

Lyra constellation. Musical race which uses rhythms and vibrations in communication. Link to ancient Greece. Music is also used to elevate consciousness and for healing. Masters of Echo-technology, they extend the power and broadcast of sound waves. If you feel a link to Lyra, you are a born musician and/or music lover, and you learn to express yourself through sound. Possible incarnation in ancient Greece or Lyra constellation. Music soothes and heals you as well as it can energize and empower you.

The Orions

Canis Major – in the Orion Belt. They are very ancient and dog-like in appearance. Strong link to Egypt, the pyramids and pharaohs; death and rebirth and sacred geometry. We find Orions in Northern Mexico myths (the Hopi). If you feel an affinity to Orion, you may have been Native Indian or Egyptian in your past-life incarnation on Earth. Orions teach us not to fear death, as it is infallibly always followed by rebirth – which is a freeing and empowering concept. Orions are also linked to dimensional gates (read Sitchin); mythology; heritage; history; love of dogs and wolves and with Guardianship (Anubis).

The Sirians

Sirius; Canis Minor. Cat-like Beings, influenced Egyptian civilization (Bastet is but one example, Goddess of beauty and cats). They embody the connection between intuition and the dream world, and the connection of Heaven and Earth. Link to Isis and Goddess Consciousness and to Orion and Anubis. Seeking and finding a Soul mate is also part of their influence. Possible Earth past life as Egyptian. Love of felines. The sphynx, guardian of the pyramids and the gateway to heaven. Learn and teach Wicca. The Dogon tribe of west Africa knew about Sirius since ancient times.

The Andromedans

Andromeda star system. The Andromedans, also known as “Nordics” (for their obvious physical similarities to the Scandinavian people of Earth) are athletic, have light blue to translucent white skin, are explorers, travelers, always curious and helpful. They are erotic beings who find power in color, and the visual. Healing and transmission of wisdom through love and knowledge. Positivity of technology; cosmic wanderers, travelers, adventurers. They are associated with the Rainbow (Bifrost of the ancient Vikings comes to mind). To get into the “vibe” of the Nordics, study Nordic mythology, anthropology, sociology and Tantra. They are, at present, destroying key under-water bases around the globe, from which the Reptilians have negatively controlled Humans for thousands of years.

The Vegans

Vega, Arabic for “Stone Eagle,” is a star/planet in the constellation of Lyra.  This planet has 2 stars and 2 moons and is 5^th dimensional. Its people are in the process of becoming Light Beings.  Blue-skinned, the Vegans are the gods of the Indian Veda. They are erotic, sensual, artistic, reflective, many-skilled, intuitive, telepathic and they are great at dealing with beings existing at lower vibration without making them feel “inferior”. They are sex masters. Sometimes these Beings change density and go from solid to liquid for astral travel, as the Zon do as well. Starseed vocation; Transformation, far-sightedness, Civilization and dissemination of knowledge, wisdom and healing/balancing. Great body care – may have an interest in cosmetics.

The Arcturians

Arcturus star. Highly evolved, 5+ density. Keepers of all knowledge; “Librarians” of the cosmos. Crop-circles; crystal technology and link to Atlantis. Diplomats. Benevolent. Angular, long-faced. Diplomacy, custodianship; record-keeping; discipline; honor. School concept and ideal – teaching and learning. Akashic records. Interest in Genealogy, Archaeology and social history and costumes.

The Oceanics

Planet Earth (but not exclusively!) Whales and dolphins, inter-dimensional creatures whose energy balances that of Earth and raises its vibrational frequency. Regeneration. Live by compassion and love. Fluid intelligence and the power to travel between different environments/dimensions. Heart. Hope.

The Astrals

Earth’s etheric field is the location. Humans whose spirits are in transition between dimensions. A pause to decide where to go next. Ghosts are earth-bound spirits who do not go into the Light. The Astrals often act as Guides for new people who die and cross over. Inter-dimensional period for reflection. They reassure us of the fact that souls live eternally and our loved ones are safe and happy. Read (any) books by Robert Moody and Brian Weiss.

The Elementals and the Fairies

Earth. Connection to Aradia; Earth-bound, Gaia lovers. They are shape-shifters, they possess Magickal powers and they are stewards of our planet. Consciousness of each element: Ether, Air, Earth, Water and Fire.  Key-words are: instinct, pride, wisdom. Fairies have a strong link to nature; they are innocent, free-spirited, benevolent and resilient; they are teeny, winged creatures. Study Celtic myths and enjoy and appreciate the beauty of nature. The Elementals and the Fairies can be called upon to heal Gaia (or Terra, the Earth).

The Animals

Earth – special souls who come often (but not always) as companions of Humans, or Children of Gaia, the Earth. Benevolent; unconditional love, companionship, loyalty, devotion and trust. Sacrifice, empathy, telepathy. They have child-like innocence and profound wisdom. The giving and receiving of unconditional love. Instinct. Learn these qualities from them and from the similarly pure energy of babies and children. Adopt a stray responsibly; support no-kill shelters; adopt vegetarianism.

On a more personal note, I think of my cats (5 now; 6 have passed on over the years) as my “babies”, but I am very well aware of the fact that they (and ALL animals) are very powerful Beings who have come to experience life on Earth as non-Humans, and who unselfishly provide us with healing and unconditional love, the one they give, and the one they allow us to give to them. They are gifted! Being both telepathic and empathic, I feel they “download” wisdom about the Universe into our eyes, through their eyes. All this greatness and the added bonus of being wonderfully entertaining!

The Shadow People

Earth-bound, negative Spirits, some used to be Human, some are negative Elementals who “claim” certain environments, like wooded areas, homes, ancient ruins/sites, etcetera. The pain in these spirits blocks the flow of love and positivity; stagnation; unwillingness to progress; attachment to places, and sometimes to people (hauntings); a state of illness, physical or mental. To banish these Energies, gently smudge with Sage and ask them kindly to go into the Light. Let go of the old and invite the new; be open to receiving abundance.

The Chupacabra

Under-the-Earth dwellers, sighted prevalently in the Latin world (South America, specifically); They resemble quilled gargoyles. They feed on animal blood, fly by their quills on their back. They are very instinctual, selfish and spiritually not very evolved. Linked to feelings of spite, jealousy, anger. Extremely instinctual mode of existing – surviving, as opposed to living; leeching off of the energy of others. Sex seen only as release or conquest. To counter this way of being, meditate and pray to elevate your vibration. Do Angel work.

The Grey look-alikes

Resemble the Greys physically only, but taller. Bio-mechanical beings genetically engineered; they are unfeeling and often conduct experiments on Humans on behalf of the Reptilians. Manipulations, insensitivity, lack of conscience. Minions, slave-to-another state; living and acting to benefit another’s agenda. Being misguided in the use of one’s energy. Many brutal alien-abductions attributed to the Greys are indeed the work of these beings, or of the Draconians (Reptilians) themselves.

Robotics

Universals – Often 1^st soul’s incarnation experience before becoming biological entity; poetry of mathematics. They have consciousness (animistic principle). They live a life of conformity and numbness, lack of individuality. They can be A) “Borg”-like warrior types which have hive-mind consciousness. They often go rogue when individuality starts to emerge; or B) Mannequin-like; emotionless, usually neutral, they act as if programmed for “good” or “evil” at times. Body-shells used to trap souls. Robotics and Mannequins may evolve in consciousness as they progress in the wheel of Karma.

Demons of the Void

Universals – Lowest energy beings existing inside and outside the Void. The Void is a black hole where souls saturated with negativity and hatred, or possessed by demons, live temporarily. Rehab of negative souls, eventually re-released into the wheel of karma. Linked to black magick, cruelty, sadism, violent crimes, drug or/and alcohol addiction, madness, mental illness, hopelessness. Death, disconnect from others and all that is, despair, trapped in one’s own mind, feeling lost. Smudge yourself with sage and ask the Angels for help to lift yourself out of a low-vibratory state of consciousness. Clean-up your lifestyle; don’t be too proud to ask for help. Love yourself.

The Draconians or Reptilians

Very ancient race linked to Alpha Draconis constellation, may have originated in far away places in the cosmos (in relation to our Milky Way galaxy). They are enemies of Humans, who they consider inferior and insignificant. However, they use us by leeching energy from us or by eating us. Very clever, ancient race, they are master geneticists and brutal warriors; they are spiritually unevolved however, and despise the Light. Chthulu or Satanic energy; links to South America, in the declining phase of the Aztec and Maya civilizations. The Reptilians control Humans (and other races they deem inferior) through the vibrations of fear (this is the energy they feed upon); through genetic manipulations; the institution of government and that of religion; the world of politics, sports, entertainment, fashion, the media, and through war. The “people” behind all these are known as the Illuminati or Globalists; the acts of cruelty and manipulation are rituals for them to feed their power. This is their religion.

They unleash demons on the Earth plane to corrupt or weaken Humans; mind control is their greatest tool, and they promote the misuse of sexuality to humiliate, debase and control. They know that Human sexuality is sacred and powerful and so they have created religion(s) that have completely twisted and polarized its original meaning; Catholicism is based on the distortion of sexuality and virtue; control of the male over the female, concepts of guilt and sin, and mental enslavement. This has been happening on Earth for thousands of years. Key words here are: Greed, hierarchy, inequality, judgment, status, racism, all forms of discrimination and disease. The Reptilians are responsible for genetically altering Humans and animals to create a predator-and-prey cycle, the polarization of Male and Female, and they have engineered most of our diseases, amongst which cancer and AIDS. Pop culture is often used as a distraction to keep people from thinking and being aware of what is truly happening. Study Hindu concept of Maya (reality is an illusion), go within and go into nature to regenerate. Stay positive and be selective with what you choose to watch on TV. The world is changing very fast on multiple levels; things will get really bad before they get really good. Do not be shackled by fear, instead, stay anchored in the hope of a New Earth: It is coming! Stay in the Light, shine your Light, live the Light and all will be well, it is as simple as that. Trust in the Universal balance.

The Shirrak

These Beings live in the core of a star in our Galaxy, they are a subterranean race. They are known as “mind benders” and their speak is a hiss/shriek. They are excellent at logic and mathematics but, most importantly, they fight Reptilians and try to shield us from them.

The Alpha

These Beings value power, achievement and dominance.

The Beta

Nesters; great protectors; can be ethnocentric in the extreme.

Talus

A star populated by Beings who are crafters of ideas and matter and are masters of Manifestation.

The Indigo

These Beings are kind and sensitive frequency shifters; they easily travel through dimensions. They make great Wanderers.

Da-Huun

A dimensional plane or hub of Air and Fire (astrological currents). Its Beings are usually sent to “school” on Earth or other “school planets.” They are very young souls.

The Core

Universal. The Core, also known as Brahma, the Source, the Light etc. is basically God and merging with It; return to the source; state of perpetual Bliss in just “being”. Timelessness, end of tests, completion, connection with all Life; communion with God by arriving at godliness within. Pure, unconditional Love and Compassion. The power to create new worlds. The beginning, the end and the new beginning. Eternity, peace, balance, Oneness. Nirvana.

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As for Kobalt YES! I have organized my notes and II have begun the novel! I will talk about this very soon.

Life is strange; as I was writing my last post on October 12, I was having some marital problems, but I would have never fathomed that, later, an argument with my husband would lead to a divorce. We were both unhappy in the (10 years) relationship, but as I always hoped we could recreate and enrich the relationship, my husband was secretly seeing and falling in love with a younger woman. The 10th of October (my 50th birthday) would be the last time I'd see Davin. On October 14th, he announced, in an e-mail, that divorce papers would follow. I have been riding an emotional roller coaster since then, and, looking past the pain, the tears and sentimentalism, I find myself feeling free, optimistic, happy and excited about my new life as single woman and artist. I am still shaking out the last of the shock and tears, but "I shall return" ;) Soon.

I am back

Time flies, I can't believe my last post was September 18! I am on a bit of a "staycation" and I am enjoying it, with plenty of time for cooking healthy food, dancing, facebooking and blogging! Also visiting with dear friends and family.
As you know, I am looking for a publisher for Ziggurat10 and one of the places I sent a proposal to was Redwheel/Wiser. They sent me an e-mail telling me that, although the book was interesting, they thought it would not be as best suited to their main publishing house, but rather to their offshoot, Turning Stone Press. I got a little excited! They said someone from Turnstone would contact me in the following days. My husband and I did a little research and we discovered that Turnstone Press is, in fact, a self-publishing press, and you know I feel about those. Not that you cannot be successful self-publishing! It is just not for me and, as you can imagine, the initial excitement fizzled.
A couple of days later I did receive an e-mail by Turnstone Press telling me my work had been "chosen" to be one of their new publishing projects and they sent a PDF of their services. They wanted $6,500 to edit and create a website for me. HA! I am an editor, I trained myself to be and I have actually, successfully edited other people's work, as well as my own,  so I don't need that. Web page? I created this blog, the web page is next. The story did not end here. Two days ago, around 9:00 a.m. the phone rings and, surprise, surprise, it is the chief editor at Turnstone Press asking me, with an incredulous tone, if I read the PDF that came with the e-mail, and I said "yes" and she was about to delve deeper into their services, and what an opportunity this is, blah blah so I politely said:"Thank you for the opportunity but I am not interested" and she finally hung up. I have to admit, it felt good to have the upper hand with a book publisher, for once.

Too bad Wiser was such a disappointment, but I sent proposals to many more publishing houses and I know one will be a perfect match for my work. I believe we do create our own reality, so never get "psyched out" by rejections and scams, continue writing, continue networking and submitting your work and what needs to happen, will happen!

Researching other publishing houses, online, I have noticed that many of them now have Self Publishing departments and one must really be careful to differentiate while publisher-hunting. This is all for tonight - more to come, I want to write about Kobalt :)

Hello again! 

I can't believe a week has passes between my debut post and this one! I have been busy with work and social engagements but now I am ready to reconnect. My latest finished book, a non-fiction, metaphysical account of my life-long experience with E.T.s, Angels and other multidimensional beings, is called Ziggurat 10: Journals of the Last Wandering. 


What makes my book somewhat different from some of the other books on the subject is the fact that I was “called” to write it by an E.T. astral Guide that my son and I encountered on the Ouija board in 1996.  We as a family have always been interested and involved in the metaphysical; we started with reading the Tarot cards and the Runes and we “graduated” to channeling through the Ouija. We have been channeling for 16 years to date and we have been exposed to amazing information that needs to be shared.

The narrative is somewhat colloquial because I want the reader to feel as if s/he is an old friend to whom I am telling my stories; now more than ever on my spiritual journey, I am aware that I am speaking to my brothers and sisters.

I struggled to create a linear, chronological order to the book, but it really came to its final, sort-of-non-linear format on its own. I organized the book into four sections for better flow. The book is 40,902 words and 120 pages in length.

I wanted to explain the title of my book; “Ziggurat” is a reference to a powerful past life I lived in ancient Sumeria, about 8,000 years ago;  the 10 is a numerological reference to my birth date in my present life: 10/10/1963 = 10/10/10 when the digits of my birth year are added. They are journals of the “last wandering” because I know that my mission as Lightworker is the last one here on Earth.

I completed this project after 8 years of work, channeling sessions, dreams and experiences, and then writing and editing it painstakingly.  I am looking for a publisher for this project, who will offer me a traditional publisher-author contract and not a self-publishing one, as I received yesterday. I appreciate the interest, in fact, I saw it as a blessing and a sign that my work is getting attention, but I can't afford (and wouldn't if I could)  to spend $7,500 on self-publishing - I am a writer and part-time cosmetician. 

The other project for which I am seeking publication is a novelette titled Orbital. The following is my official synopsis:

Orbital is the story of Evora, a hybrid Being (Human and alien female) who finds herself mutating, physically and spiritually, over the span of three lifetimes, on different planets, and in the first of these lives, she lives in a palace, amongst mannequins of people she knew.  The mannequins tells her stories of who they were and who she is.

            In the first part of the story, titled “The Tyrant,”  Evora, out of boredom begins to build androids, and she is aware that she is being constantly watched.  She does not know the Beings orbiting her planet, the Hunab Ku, are testing her to help her grow.   At one point, tired of mechanical Beings,  she longs for a flesh and blood lover, so she clones herself and transmuted the gender of her clone to male.  A turbulent relationship unfolds as some of the other Beings change, as well as developing personalities and feelings.

            Part two, “The Hermit” sees Evora (now a girl named Sybilla) as part of a community on a planet named Terra, where people are compelled to depend on a caste of Theoscientists  who proclaim themselves as gods, but they end up hurting the population rather than helping it.  Sybilla feels very alone in this lifetime and pits herself  against this caste of “Venerables”.

            In the third part of the story, titled “The Victim”, Sybilla is tortured by the Venerables for her beliefs and for instigating others to rebel.  In this part of the story she meets her nemesis and this Being (who has followed her in each of her lifetimes) reveals to her its true identity, resolving an entire soul-chapter for Sybilla/Evora.

            The last part of the story, called “Unified Self,”  shows Evora coming full circle; she has grown, she has evolved and continues to evolve, pondering where and when she will incarnate next.  This is roughly the outline; I hope you will want to see the manuscript.

            Orbital is unusual in structure, rather non-linear. It is 13, 177 words (about 63 pages) in length.  The genesis of Orbital   has been protracted (nearly three years in the writing and editing) and intricate; it often mirrors and/or spawned periods of spiritual growth in my life, and some parts of it have come to me through dreams.   

I would like to share an excerpt from Ziggurat 10:

April 25^th, 2012

        "Wow! Awesome UFO dream! I dreamed that I was at home, in Naples, in my teens (by now, this is a known abduction scenario in my experience) with my original family. My brothers and sisters around me, we noticed a low, rumbling engine noise and I knew “They” were outside the apartment, on the kitchen’s balcony. I saw a light and Mom said:”It has arrived” and we all held hands, forming a human chain. I felt anxious and, as the light bathed us all, I thought:”In my new state, will I miss this?” This standing for my life on Earth, my body and habits, the pleasure and the hurt, my family.

        Tonight I spoke to my Guide about this dream and It said the dream was many things at once; first, an abduction memory form my past. Second, “They” implanted the memory of me and my family holding hands so I would recall less fear, and third, this is a visit NOW to remind me that they love me, and I must finish the book, because they are soon openly coming to Earth. The Guide said I won’t be scared – They are preparing me and countless many of us for the event. We are all in this together, we shall recreate the planet! Humanity shall meet the modern Annunaki and they will help us create a planet of love and peace at a much higher vibration. On a more person level, I asked the Vondon if they will know who and Andrew are/were and It said: “ Yes, and they will want you to write a lot more, and Andrew write his graphic novels, to be among the many who  shall help reshape your culture on the New Earth.”

 Another entry reads: 

May 21^st, 2012 Victoria

At my in-laws’ house, overnight.

"I “dreamed” that my sister Stefy and I were in our teens, and we were lying down on gurneys in a dimly lit room, with the space of about one meter between us. We were covered in white sheets from the chest down and we were surrounded by men and women (These felt like humanoids trying to look human) dressed in white lab coats.

        The most peculiar thing was the silence and the fact that there were two arms I saw outstretched above my head, and they looked wiry, thin, ash in color and quite long. Their knobby, skinny hands were gently pushing me down as a nurse-looking Being gave me an injection. My body was vibrating heavily and I slid off the gurney, heavy with sedation and I woke up. My body kept vibrating for about a minute after I woke.

Once at home, I did a channeling session with Andrew, and the Being told me that they wanted me to re-experience that particular abduction to know why they did it; they were aware that I was suicidal, and they knew I could not yet exit my role in this body and so, they changed my brain chemistry to make me feel I had to stay. I am not sure why Stefy was there, but I know we were often abducted together. The ETs want me to know I am loved and they stand close by." 

From Orbital:

"The Tyrant

As the sun set on Taranis, the whirring of the sphere lulled the island into the obsequious silence of a prayer recited in the heart. All creatures stood still, in quiet meditation, until they no longer heard the buzzing of the descending sun. This, as in the morning, at the rising of the life-giving star, was the most sacred moment to celebrate life and the elements shaping and sustaining it.

Evora was not thankful for life. She, cloistered in her palace, was surrounded by mechanical and bio-mechanical beings which, at once, imitated and mocked the appearance of humans.

The creatures existed in ascending degrees of consciousness as they had become less mechanical and more biological. She baptized the sentient, bio-mechanical beings SYNHS, for Synthetic Humans.

She preferred that the creatures be silent most of the time. Her greatest hour was that in which, at the rising and the setting of the sun, she, seated in the hall of her magnificent palace, looked upon the crowd of mannequins she called her people as they stopped moving and worshipped her by assuming stances of adoration. She was their sun, and the buzzing, synchronous to that of the actual star, which was heard at Regina Undarum, was that, metallic and echoing, that the mannequins emitted in unison as they bowed to her.

One Hunapu, the latest of the lovers she had manufactured for herself, had been the first of her sentient creatures; her masterpiece, her pride. But he did not sit beside her in the Hall of Lights in her greatest hour.

Since his first day of consciousness he was made to understand that he was nothing more than a thing, a thing which wholly belonged to her.

“I made your body, I made your brain; you may think you belong to yourself, but you do not. It is an illusion stemming from the fact that I provided you with the instruments in your head which allow you to think. I am the programmer of your mind, the owner of your being, mother and lover to you,” she had stated only moments after he had uttered his first words: “Who am I?”"

As many other artists out there, I never think that the finished product is as good as the mental conception of the story, but I hope that some of you have enjoyed the excerpts and I welcome feed-back and questions! For today, this is all; hope to write again real soon.